i want new wallet and jeans and tops!
i wonder why mothers-in-law and wives clash, as in drama serials. i thought no matter what the mother will win, so what for quarrel? she was the one who gave birth to the guy, and for so many years was the only woman in his life, taking care of his needs. the fact that she is important deosnt change even if the guy now has a family of his own what. stupid. what for quarrel then? haha
perhaps long ago, when people told me to start dating only in university i should have listened. then perhaps i could still innocently believe a relationship will last. not witness breakups and heartaches to eventually become a skeptic.
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
i am a person who is constantly guarded. you just have to observe and you will know. when i sit or stand, i cross my arms in front of me. to protect myself, to keep a safe distance from everyone. i didnt realise, i was keeping my life away from my family too.
perhaps i am not sensible enough to be the older sibling. for i suddenly realise, my brother is just so much more admirable in his ways and thinking.
kelong trip 3rd to 5th june! a chance to perhaps reconciliate things and spend more time with my family. family time- a commodity that is harder to come by, and all the more a treasure.
there's a kind of gratitude towards family, that is more than what words can express. a kind of indebtedness. for always understanding.
perhaps i am not sensible enough to be the older sibling. for i suddenly realise, my brother is just so much more admirable in his ways and thinking.
kelong trip 3rd to 5th june! a chance to perhaps reconciliate things and spend more time with my family. family time- a commodity that is harder to come by, and all the more a treasure.
there's a kind of gratitude towards family, that is more than what words can express. a kind of indebtedness. for always understanding.
i dont want to become just a number, a passing guest in your life.
i wasnt the first girl you kissed, the first girl you wanted to marry. guess that's why i was affected. affected i wasn't the first, afraid i wont be the last. but then you arent the first one i kissed too, so it should actually be fair right?
yet somehow, there's a slight hollow space in my heart. a space only you can fill, by hugging me tight, so that i feel your warmth and heartbeat.
i need to hear you say you love me. to strengthen my faith in us. that our relationship wont change in the years ahead, however long and arduous the journey will be.
i wasnt the first girl you kissed, the first girl you wanted to marry. guess that's why i was affected. affected i wasn't the first, afraid i wont be the last. but then you arent the first one i kissed too, so it should actually be fair right?
yet somehow, there's a slight hollow space in my heart. a space only you can fill, by hugging me tight, so that i feel your warmth and heartbeat.
i need to hear you say you love me. to strengthen my faith in us. that our relationship wont change in the years ahead, however long and arduous the journey will be.
Monday, May 29, 2006
i did it again. inadvertently i will do it. hurt the one who looks up to me, who grew up together with me, who i love and care for.
it hurts cause he suffers but does not complain, it hurts cause i am supposed to be so close and attentive to him. cause i know what he said is true, once hurt, forever wounded.
by neglecting his needs which are so seldom, i feel guilty. and it makes me cry. cause i know just how much he loves me.. i actually put something else before him. and i feel so blind not to see, that he has always been there for me.
yes i know it's a small thing, but small things are the ones that matter the most..
sorry bro, i didnt even know that i could hurt you so deep.
it hurts cause he suffers but does not complain, it hurts cause i am supposed to be so close and attentive to him. cause i know what he said is true, once hurt, forever wounded.
by neglecting his needs which are so seldom, i feel guilty. and it makes me cry. cause i know just how much he loves me.. i actually put something else before him. and i feel so blind not to see, that he has always been there for me.
yes i know it's a small thing, but small things are the ones that matter the most..
sorry bro, i didnt even know that i could hurt you so deep.
oily and greasy- utterly digusting. eewww the smoke and smell of instant noodles have invaded each and every one of my pore. yucks
utterly digusting can also be used to describe singaporeans at the food fair. inconsiderate, and just simply bad manners. grab and go, then litter. grr
one more day! thank god!!
utterly digusting can also be used to describe singaporeans at the food fair. inconsiderate, and just simply bad manners. grab and go, then litter. grr
one more day! thank god!!
Friday, May 26, 2006
second day of the fair, and i am really dead tired. legs dont seem to belong to me anymore!! standing for 12 hours isn't fun!! shouting isn't fun either!!!
barely enough rest, but here i am to complain, but it's quite a happy day!! =) had good friends come down to the fair looking for me, super appreciated!!! =D thanks!! especially since i know it's so hard to find me, and expo is just so crowded and abit inaccessible!!
3 more days ahead, then hang my feet up and gonna sleep for a decade. haha well, hair's dry, eyes are tired, and bed's beckoning, gotta go sleep!! cya!! =)
sau tou noodle king thin noodles, and sau tou dry abalone noodles!! CHEAP CHEAP! haha
barely enough rest, but here i am to complain, but it's quite a happy day!! =) had good friends come down to the fair looking for me, super appreciated!!! =D thanks!! especially since i know it's so hard to find me, and expo is just so crowded and abit inaccessible!!
3 more days ahead, then hang my feet up and gonna sleep for a decade. haha well, hair's dry, eyes are tired, and bed's beckoning, gotta go sleep!! cya!! =)
sau tou noodle king thin noodles, and sau tou dry abalone noodles!! CHEAP CHEAP! haha
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
i realised yesterday that even with conscious efforts not to, i am unconsciously becoming her. the things that i dont like her to do, i did one of them yesterday. and i realised somehow i cant escape being somewhat similar to her, cause i am influenced by her, and because the bigger reason is i'm her girl.
so i need a man like my father, who can tolerate me. haha
to say i'm kind of relieved is an understatement. i am ultra happy that my over active imagination did not come true. thanks my dear for being so understanding!!! =)
so i need a man like my father, who can tolerate me. haha
to say i'm kind of relieved is an understatement. i am ultra happy that my over active imagination did not come true. thanks my dear for being so understanding!!! =)
Sunday, May 21, 2006
had a great day yesterday!! but i woke too early and was hence a bit seh towards the end..
got the job for the food fair, but that means having to forgo the interview gen helped me secure.. sorry gal!! training's tomorrow at 3pm at boon lay!! and i'll be working from thursday to monday (25th to 29th may). catch me at the food fair@ expo if you crave crowds.. haha =p
had a semi-annual sort of 2B gathering yesterday, and despite some people's uncertain replies that kind of killed me, the turnout was pretty good!! we had 11 people for kbox, and the room they gave us was of a size i've never seen again since CDS went to taiwan!! got pool table, projection screen, mini stage and a side bar! but cannot play pool, cause must have a certain minimum spending, which i am paisae to ask how much.. haha
sang from 2pm to 7pm and then went for dinner, but as usual, with such a gang of people, we always take an awfullly long time deciding. after walking from marina square to millenia walk and then to suntec fish and co, and after the staff finally seated us, it was 9pm. haha pro ya?
the New York Fish and Chips weren't bad, but i couldn't finish them, and i was perhaps too used to the usual ambience of fish n co, so i found the suntec branch abit too bright. haha but at least i could see everyone, and the group photo turned out well.. =)
all in all, i was just happy to see people make effort to turn up, and so i made an effort to try to talk to everyone, include them, and i hoped i didnt fare too badly.. but the number of pictures are so sorely little!
to conclude the entry, something did happen yesterday morning that nearly drove me wild with vulgarities and irritation. i deposited $100 into the UOB cash deposit machine, and it ate my money up, and then it told me it was out of service. and the customer service hotline had me on hold for 7 minutes! before telling me a report will be filed and a reply given to me by monday. the money better be credited to my account!!!! grr.
got the job for the food fair, but that means having to forgo the interview gen helped me secure.. sorry gal!! training's tomorrow at 3pm at boon lay!! and i'll be working from thursday to monday (25th to 29th may). catch me at the food fair@ expo if you crave crowds.. haha =p
had a semi-annual sort of 2B gathering yesterday, and despite some people's uncertain replies that kind of killed me, the turnout was pretty good!! we had 11 people for kbox, and the room they gave us was of a size i've never seen again since CDS went to taiwan!! got pool table, projection screen, mini stage and a side bar! but cannot play pool, cause must have a certain minimum spending, which i am paisae to ask how much.. haha
sang from 2pm to 7pm and then went for dinner, but as usual, with such a gang of people, we always take an awfullly long time deciding. after walking from marina square to millenia walk and then to suntec fish and co, and after the staff finally seated us, it was 9pm. haha pro ya?
the New York Fish and Chips weren't bad, but i couldn't finish them, and i was perhaps too used to the usual ambience of fish n co, so i found the suntec branch abit too bright. haha but at least i could see everyone, and the group photo turned out well.. =)
all in all, i was just happy to see people make effort to turn up, and so i made an effort to try to talk to everyone, include them, and i hoped i didnt fare too badly.. but the number of pictures are so sorely little!
to conclude the entry, something did happen yesterday morning that nearly drove me wild with vulgarities and irritation. i deposited $100 into the UOB cash deposit machine, and it ate my money up, and then it told me it was out of service. and the customer service hotline had me on hold for 7 minutes! before telling me a report will be filed and a reply given to me by monday. the money better be credited to my account!!!! grr.
Friday, May 19, 2006
had a tiring day today, walked alot, far east to taka to heeren to cine and back to heeren.. settled all presents there were to settle, but i am a bit sad at having to disappoint my brother..
maybe people think how come my brother always asks me buy things for him, but i try to get whatever he asks me to, cause i feel he seldom asks me for anything anymore, and if i could get him something really nice that he needed i would make him happy, and i would be happy too.. but today i failed in that, and i feel sad. and the slippers he so haolian about makes me feel lousy, cause i took his money for it, though it wasn't ex, just because i keep going out these days, and i'm broke. feel abit 孬. grr
and i'm in a fix. haiz.
didnt know that weeinn had a job lobang, and when i knew it today, i was eager to work, for the money. but then i had already promised gen to go together for an interview on fri, which was supposed to be one of the days i working with weeinn. and tomorrow's the interview for the job weeinn has.
well, i could find some way to go for the interview with gen, by falling 'sick', or i could postpone to go the interview alone, or just cancel the job interview, which means losing the potential job. the last option is the easiest i know, but i know that gen went to some trouble to help me find job, and i feel so bad if i were to cancel. it would be as if all her good intentions and effort went down the drain, and i really do appreciate her!
the job she has for me seems interesting, though it really is something i never tried before..abit tentative but i would like to try.. i just want to try and see if i like it, if i'm up to it.. wrong?
haiz, but to pontang half a day's work is not good either.
haiz. i suddenly feel like being obstinate, let everything work themselves out.
haiz.
maybe people think how come my brother always asks me buy things for him, but i try to get whatever he asks me to, cause i feel he seldom asks me for anything anymore, and if i could get him something really nice that he needed i would make him happy, and i would be happy too.. but today i failed in that, and i feel sad. and the slippers he so haolian about makes me feel lousy, cause i took his money for it, though it wasn't ex, just because i keep going out these days, and i'm broke. feel abit 孬. grr
and i'm in a fix. haiz.
didnt know that weeinn had a job lobang, and when i knew it today, i was eager to work, for the money. but then i had already promised gen to go together for an interview on fri, which was supposed to be one of the days i working with weeinn. and tomorrow's the interview for the job weeinn has.
well, i could find some way to go for the interview with gen, by falling 'sick', or i could postpone to go the interview alone, or just cancel the job interview, which means losing the potential job. the last option is the easiest i know, but i know that gen went to some trouble to help me find job, and i feel so bad if i were to cancel. it would be as if all her good intentions and effort went down the drain, and i really do appreciate her!
the job she has for me seems interesting, though it really is something i never tried before..abit tentative but i would like to try.. i just want to try and see if i like it, if i'm up to it.. wrong?
haiz, but to pontang half a day's work is not good either.
haiz. i suddenly feel like being obstinate, let everything work themselves out.
haiz.
Thursday, May 18, 2006
oh ya! something i realised today.. i have no grudges against people who smoke.
i have no grudges against people who smoke, except those who are already living on cents earned from guarding toilets yet insists on smoking that money away, or people who simply cant see no smoking signs, or people who smoke in my presence, or within my breathable area, i condemn you.
curse you even, for i am no saint. i dont seek to rehabilitate you, i just hope you die somewhere far away. FUCK OFF and dont come to pollute my air!
ranting cause of an inconsiderate ah pek who kiao ka smoked at the bus stop at the start of my day..
i have no grudges against people who smoke, except those who are already living on cents earned from guarding toilets yet insists on smoking that money away, or people who simply cant see no smoking signs, or people who smoke in my presence, or within my breathable area, i condemn you.
curse you even, for i am no saint. i dont seek to rehabilitate you, i just hope you die somewhere far away. FUCK OFF and dont come to pollute my air!
ranting cause of an inconsiderate ah pek who kiao ka smoked at the bus stop at the start of my day..
i want a person who makes me laugh and shares my sorrows, hugs me tight and makes me feel safe..
on a totally unrelated note, i went out with evan to the national library, the place is nice!! and the few hours we spent together just talking is comforting, spending time with old friend is always so enjoyable.. i guess that's what makes old friends so valuable, cause we sort of know each other so well that some things only need a sentence to make them understand..
tomorrow going out with the girls! =D
on a totally unrelated note, i went out with evan to the national library, the place is nice!! and the few hours we spent together just talking is comforting, spending time with old friend is always so enjoyable.. i guess that's what makes old friends so valuable, cause we sort of know each other so well that some things only need a sentence to make them understand..
tomorrow going out with the girls! =D
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
oh.. how come people always say 'what if we quarrel, what if we break up, what if the love fades, what if..'
how come 'what ifs' are all bad things? why no such thing as what if we last?
cause to make a relationship last, effort is required, and its not up to chance..
perhaps when older people fall in love they tend to last cause they are more serious..
p.s: anyone gets the rubbish i blabbering?
how come 'what ifs' are all bad things? why no such thing as what if we last?
cause to make a relationship last, effort is required, and its not up to chance..
perhaps when older people fall in love they tend to last cause they are more serious..
p.s: anyone gets the rubbish i blabbering?
3 words, that jolted me wide awake, and forced me to halt and seriously evaluate all that i've done so far.
in the past, i used to take success and failure seriously, abit too much perhaps. but somehow, over the years, i seem to take things too casually, abit flippant even.
in primary school, As were the norm, then on entering secondary, scored badly on tests initially, but still managed to do alright. the same goes for JC. is it cause of these that i thought it's ok to be less serious during learning so long as the end results come out to be still good? or is it i hate to admit failure, so i use a flippant attitude to hide how much i fear to fail?
i dont know.. but now i wonder, am i serious regarding my life? i dont feel i was serious towards driving.. what else am i not serious at?
i suddenly feel the world spinning, kind of losing my orientation.. i dont think i've even cherished an ambition or a dream for at least 6 or 7 years now..
abit down.. cause i feel i 不认真
in the past, i used to take success and failure seriously, abit too much perhaps. but somehow, over the years, i seem to take things too casually, abit flippant even.
in primary school, As were the norm, then on entering secondary, scored badly on tests initially, but still managed to do alright. the same goes for JC. is it cause of these that i thought it's ok to be less serious during learning so long as the end results come out to be still good? or is it i hate to admit failure, so i use a flippant attitude to hide how much i fear to fail?
i dont know.. but now i wonder, am i serious regarding my life? i dont feel i was serious towards driving.. what else am i not serious at?
i suddenly feel the world spinning, kind of losing my orientation.. i dont think i've even cherished an ambition or a dream for at least 6 or 7 years now..
abit down.. cause i feel i 不认真
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
how to achieve a win-win situation?
though i know running away is not the solution, and it hurts everybody, but i must admit, i am a coward in the face of daunting problems.
the option of running away is not possible anymore, so i guess, i must learn to grow up and be brave in confronting my problem.
could have gone out, but somehow a bit sian. we'll meet another day girls!=)
though i know running away is not the solution, and it hurts everybody, but i must admit, i am a coward in the face of daunting problems.
the option of running away is not possible anymore, so i guess, i must learn to grow up and be brave in confronting my problem.
could have gone out, but somehow a bit sian. we'll meet another day girls!=)
no matter how restrictive they are, and even though i yearn to break away from them, every night they are the ones waiting up for me, and even if i live to 100, they'll always be irreplaceable..
thank the beings above that the doctor said you're alright, and i sadly found out that the phone conversation today was probably more than what we've spoken the entire weekend.
i should show my love more. even if i love my family more than i love my friends, i seem to spend more time outside than in the house.
i guess if i am suddenly to live without my family, i would be lost, all my actions would become meaningless, for i will be accountable only to myself. and though it sounds nice sometimes, but really, it'll feel empty..
can you imagine spending years to get accustomed to a person's presence, gestures, moods and suddenly have it taken away from you out of the blue?
at times like this, i wish i had a religion, for i can't prevent such a thing from happening. i just hope later rather than sooner..
thank the beings above that the doctor said you're alright, and i sadly found out that the phone conversation today was probably more than what we've spoken the entire weekend.
i should show my love more. even if i love my family more than i love my friends, i seem to spend more time outside than in the house.
i guess if i am suddenly to live without my family, i would be lost, all my actions would become meaningless, for i will be accountable only to myself. and though it sounds nice sometimes, but really, it'll feel empty..
can you imagine spending years to get accustomed to a person's presence, gestures, moods and suddenly have it taken away from you out of the blue?
at times like this, i wish i had a religion, for i can't prevent such a thing from happening. i just hope later rather than sooner..
Sunday, May 14, 2006
oh it felt nice to have someone say thanks.. though the credit is mostly not mine. haha i just smsed, never even think of what plans for the day.. haha
a totally boliao factoid: i used to cancel the 'a' in 'palace' whenever i came across it while reading, till up to the age of 7 or 8? cause i just thought the word was supposed to be 'place' haha lol=p
a totally boliao factoid: i used to cancel the 'a' in 'palace' whenever i came across it while reading, till up to the age of 7 or 8? cause i just thought the word was supposed to be 'place' haha lol=p
Saturday, May 13, 2006
Friday, May 12, 2006
i am bored.
today was supposed to meet evan, but maybe it's cause i too nua, but then the thought of going out on a public holiday and fighting the throngs of people doesn't seem too entertaining to me. so sorry gal! we'll meet next week! hugs*
parents are coming back today, and i realised the house can function without me.. cause my brother is good at taking care of himself, even doing the laundry etc. inferior. haha
kind of disappointed yesterday never take photos.. met sharon and we went play pool, haha ya i stink. and then we went marina south for steamboat dinner(i still think i have bbq smell, even though i bathed!!) quite a happy day actually, though yesterday i was really tired. haha didnt sleep well..
well, let's see, so far i havent done anything productive. at all.
and sat i going for facial, perhaps i should try to sweep and mop the floor before that? but i can only do it if nobody's at home! cause i hate people walking around. haha
sun is grandmother's day buffet at a lousy paramount hotel. and i didnt get my mother anything, bad hor?
monday's still free, tues is mahjong day, wed to fri also free.. maybe fri meet weeinn? since we got birthday presents to buy and catching up to do..
broke, at the rate i spending money. a bit guilty. blea
today was supposed to meet evan, but maybe it's cause i too nua, but then the thought of going out on a public holiday and fighting the throngs of people doesn't seem too entertaining to me. so sorry gal! we'll meet next week! hugs*
parents are coming back today, and i realised the house can function without me.. cause my brother is good at taking care of himself, even doing the laundry etc. inferior. haha
kind of disappointed yesterday never take photos.. met sharon and we went play pool, haha ya i stink. and then we went marina south for steamboat dinner(i still think i have bbq smell, even though i bathed!!) quite a happy day actually, though yesterday i was really tired. haha didnt sleep well..
well, let's see, so far i havent done anything productive. at all.
and sat i going for facial, perhaps i should try to sweep and mop the floor before that? but i can only do it if nobody's at home! cause i hate people walking around. haha
sun is grandmother's day buffet at a lousy paramount hotel. and i didnt get my mother anything, bad hor?
monday's still free, tues is mahjong day, wed to fri also free.. maybe fri meet weeinn? since we got birthday presents to buy and catching up to do..
broke, at the rate i spending money. a bit guilty. blea
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
i forgot what i want to blog already.. the words in my head this morning has obviously disappeared into thin air after a day.. haha
nevermind la.. happy that today md, joyce, ql and i went to eat buffet at feast@ east restaurant at roxy square.. hmm it was a different kind of buffet from the usual sushi ones, but personally i think it still isn't too good la... though we had a great time..
this coming tues we will take photos ok? looking forward to it... haha like so happening ar? =p
aiya, lost the blogging mood le. nights.
nevermind la.. happy that today md, joyce, ql and i went to eat buffet at feast@ east restaurant at roxy square.. hmm it was a different kind of buffet from the usual sushi ones, but personally i think it still isn't too good la... though we had a great time..
this coming tues we will take photos ok? looking forward to it... haha like so happening ar? =p
aiya, lost the blogging mood le. nights.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
how come the previous batch of ahscds seniors can find ten people together to celebrate birthdays, whenwe have trouble finding even 6?
haiz.. i know la.. not everybody gets along well, but the dwindling number is saddening...
i dont really think i acted anything memorable in those days, but at least the 胡闹 times were fun..
haiz.. i know la.. not everybody gets along well, but the dwindling number is saddening...
i dont really think i acted anything memorable in those days, but at least the 胡闹 times were fun..
how did it become like this? unhappiness between friends should have been solved by talking it out..but somehow we lost contact. i dont even know how to sms you happy birthday, even though i remembered. our lives now seem so far apart.
we may have some unhappiness before, but to lose a friend like that seems not worth it. especially when we have spent days talking hours of crap on the phone, going to far off places like the safari for an all night adventure.. even watched a shooting star together..
like ql, i just wish you are getting on fine...the thought of reconciliation is truthfully abit scary, cause we're all afraid the same thing happens again..
sentimental...
we may have some unhappiness before, but to lose a friend like that seems not worth it. especially when we have spent days talking hours of crap on the phone, going to far off places like the safari for an all night adventure.. even watched a shooting star together..
like ql, i just wish you are getting on fine...the thought of reconciliation is truthfully abit scary, cause we're all afraid the same thing happens again..
sentimental...
Saturday, May 06, 2006
lalala a boring day.. another cleaning day, where i finally threw out my old Jc notes, and realised to my complete surprise, i have 6(!) textbooks. ahaha
going to continue cleaning my room tomorrow, and i'll buy the necessary stuff to paint my room!! wahaha
but holidays becoming a bit sian liao.. how? haha
going to continue cleaning my room tomorrow, and i'll buy the necessary stuff to paint my room!! wahaha
but holidays becoming a bit sian liao.. how? haha
my one day of hard work is being undone by my dirty roller chair.
a friendship that i treasured was somehow lost too.
i miss the simpler days of strolling up and down old block, climbing on the parapet, talking lame jokes, and taking lame pics..
good friends are those i can talk all through the night with..
a friendship that i treasured was somehow lost too.
i miss the simpler days of strolling up and down old block, climbing on the parapet, talking lame jokes, and taking lame pics..
good friends are those i can talk all through the night with..
Friday, May 05, 2006
did my due of housework today, felt a bit auntie.. swept mopped folded and ironed. haha but now that the house is clean, i feel happy.
and ya, the unhappiness of yesterday is gone.. dont worry! =)
suddenly happy i forgot to apply for intersem, if not school starts the next week i will puke. haha i got lots of things to do! and i need a job!! lobangs??
yay~!!
and ya, the unhappiness of yesterday is gone.. dont worry! =)
suddenly happy i forgot to apply for intersem, if not school starts the next week i will puke. haha i got lots of things to do! and i need a job!! lobangs??
yay~!!
well, i'm tired.
the exams are finally over! but i cant really say i'm elated right now.
how does anyone who quarrels with their parents have any more remaining energy to invest in other aspects of life?it's a lifelong struggle that i can never win what?!
i know they are afraid they will lose me, to the fearful materialistic dangerous world outside, but they've got to have trust in me too! trust that i'm equipped with all the values they've taught me, and that letting me go for now doesnt mean i will no longer be their little girl.
getting me home early is so restrictive. even my brother's after me. please, why cant girls stay out later if they are with safe company? i just dont get it. double standards for my bro and i is really kind of making me sick. i want to be selfish and rant at my brother for not informing my parents i'm coming home late, when i did that for him, but i know i am actually the one responsible for informing them. haiz.
when even your younger brother is watching out for you, you feel kind of useless, kind of over protected.feel like crying. torn.
不再是小孩，请不要继续把我当作小孩。
只想说累了.
i changed the font specially for my blind evan. haha dont care if ugly. =p
the exams are finally over! but i cant really say i'm elated right now.
how does anyone who quarrels with their parents have any more remaining energy to invest in other aspects of life?it's a lifelong struggle that i can never win what?!
i know they are afraid they will lose me, to the fearful materialistic dangerous world outside, but they've got to have trust in me too! trust that i'm equipped with all the values they've taught me, and that letting me go for now doesnt mean i will no longer be their little girl.
getting me home early is so restrictive. even my brother's after me. please, why cant girls stay out later if they are with safe company? i just dont get it. double standards for my bro and i is really kind of making me sick. i want to be selfish and rant at my brother for not informing my parents i'm coming home late, when i did that for him, but i know i am actually the one responsible for informing them. haiz.
when even your younger brother is watching out for you, you feel kind of useless, kind of over protected.feel like crying. torn.
不再是小孩，请不要继续把我当作小孩。
只想说累了.
i changed the font specially for my blind evan. haha dont care if ugly. =p
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
i cant even sleep any time i want, i cant even talk on the phone when i want to, for as long as i want.
how unfortunate that parents refuse to acknowledge that i've grown up, and i can actually mess up my life any way i want.
just 无奈.. haiz and he asked me not to focus all my attention on one aspect of my life. tell me, how not to despair?
how unfortunate that parents refuse to acknowledge that i've grown up, and i can actually mess up my life any way i want.
just 无奈.. haiz and he asked me not to focus all my attention on one aspect of my life. tell me, how not to despair?
one nice evening, a family of 4 minus the son, went out for a quick dinner at the kopitiam behind. and after dinner, the three of them walked back, and the father started searching his pockets for the house keys. he exclaimed:"oh no, i thought i brought the keys?!"
and so 5 minutes of drama ensued. a family that was pathetically locked out of their own home, using a splintered broomstick, tried to jiggle the keys to drop to the floor. and just when it successfully dropped to the floor, the father exclaimed:"oh! it's in my back pocket!"
ps. thank god my brother couldn't be called home to rescue us
p.p.s one person locked out is unfortunate, 3 is just pathetically hilarious
p.p.p.s i shall always bring my keys
-the end-
and so 5 minutes of drama ensued. a family that was pathetically locked out of their own home, using a splintered broomstick, tried to jiggle the keys to drop to the floor. and just when it successfully dropped to the floor, the father exclaimed:"oh! it's in my back pocket!"
ps. thank god my brother couldn't be called home to rescue us
p.p.s one person locked out is unfortunate, 3 is just pathetically hilarious
p.p.p.s i shall always bring my keys
-the end-
Monday, May 01, 2006
emotional today, got overcame by a sudden fear of loss..
till now, i had only feared the day when my ahma or dad has to be separated from me.. which makes me wonder-why am i emotional today?
feel like asking guys to treasure the simple fact that they are guys, cause they arent always going to have to report for coming home late.. but maybe once in a while, girls should also treasure the fact that we are protected..
till now, i had only feared the day when my ahma or dad has to be separated from me.. which makes me wonder-why am i emotional today?
feel like asking guys to treasure the simple fact that they are guys, cause they arent always going to have to report for coming home late.. but maybe once in a while, girls should also treasure the fact that we are protected..
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